panic over
Oct. 26th, 2011 04:02 pmthe main college disbursment will be here in a day or two, hopefully, meaning I can get my meds and fill up my car and actually get my textbooks in a day or two. Plans for this semester, hire a Chinese tutor, and start taking violin lessons again. I might get a different teacher, nothing against the one I had but there's a violin teacher who also plays the erhu, and I really really want to learn how to play the er-hu as well and I'm hoping he might be willing to teach me in a year or two. I'm not out of the woods yet, but things are looking up!
Also, Nanowrimo starts in 5 days. TIME TO PANIC AGAIN OMG OMG OMG WAT hahaha /dies
Also, Nanowrimo starts in 5 days. TIME TO PANIC AGAIN OMG OMG OMG WAT hahaha /dies
that $4.34 cents I just got as a refund on my disbursement better not be it for the term, or I am up shit creek without a paddle.
At least my classes are paid for, but that won't even cover a week's worth of bus tickets, let alone food, gas, car insurance, my medication (haven't taken it in a week, already feeling the depression come back, IDK what I'll do if I don't get the rest of my student loans this term... probably kill myself and no I am not joking)
oh geeze, I'm getting suicidal thoughts again already. Next up, excessive consumption of alcohol, mid-night freakouts and self-mutilation! Oh my, what fun! I can't wait!
/pulls hair out
At least my classes are paid for, but that won't even cover a week's worth of bus tickets, let alone food, gas, car insurance, my medication (haven't taken it in a week, already feeling the depression come back, IDK what I'll do if I don't get the rest of my student loans this term... probably kill myself and no I am not joking)
oh geeze, I'm getting suicidal thoughts again already. Next up, excessive consumption of alcohol, mid-night freakouts and self-mutilation! Oh my, what fun! I can't wait!
/pulls hair out